All the glory that I bear

It's been a couple of weeks now, but I got my hair cut short again! Though it was by no means long, it was too long for me. Short hair is who I am, yo. I know that a lot of people have the idea that caring about your haircut, or your appearance in general, is superficial. And you know what, it might just as well be. I couldn't care less whether people think that or not. But for the sake of writing, I'll try to convey why that shit ain't as vain as you might think it is.

With all the rules, deadlines and restrictions we have to deal with in life it only seems natural, especially if you're a creative individual, to try and be as restrictionless in the parts of life where you have complete control. Like with your appearance. And even that can be restricted by employers, schools and other party poopers. I understand. You can't be a tattooed freakazoid when you have to work with fragile old people who have heart attacks because their jell-o didn't turn up in time. You can't set a "bad" example for young children by turning up to teach a classroom in a band T and bright blue hair. Though I would've fucking loved that. I "understand". I don't agree, that's for sure. Being raised by crazy hippies, I think that everyone should just wear whatever the hell they want. I think that, only if we start to get used to people looking different from ourselves, we can stop judging people who look different from ourselves.

Before I turned eleven, I wanted to have long hair. Like a princess. The epitome of femininity. What all the boys like. After my puberty kicked in I slowly but surely moved towards my more individual taste, opinion and look. I got my nose pierced when I was twelve. I cut my hair short, together with my sister. I remember my youngest brother telling us that short hair wasn't pretty on girls. Especially not on someone with a round face, like mine. That was the first of many times I would think "Well, what if I don't actually WANT to be pretty? Maybe I just want to figure out who I am?". So I cut it. I loved it. It was my very first step into "I'm going to be whatever I want to be" territory. Because of reasons I will probably discuss in a future post, I had some years where there was no room for trying to really find myself or broadening my horizon. A couple of years older, I dyed my hair crazy colors and I'm still doing that. I never regretted a single haircut, dyejob or piercing (I could use a couple 'a more of the latter) because, like taking guitarlessons or picking up a book, it helps you to get to know who you are. Like getting that first tattoo I've been dreaming about. People tell you it'll be ugly. You'll regret it once you're older. But in the end of the day, you're just going to have to decide that for yourself. After having gone through some tough shit this past year, it's time to think about myself again. Finding out who I am. So I cut my hair. I'm thinking about that tattoo. I started reading more again. I finally started drawing after months of being completely inspirationless. Maybe getting some piano lessons. Buying other clothes. Doing things alone. You know what? I totally forgot about the fact that I'm actually kind of awesome. WITH AWESOME HAIR:

In the words of Gaga:

I've had enough, this is my prayer
That I'll die living just as free as my hair

OH and how do you like my new bloglook? I'm still kind of playing around but I really like it so far!

Make over

I'm sorry I haven't made blogpost in a while (again!) but I've just been dealing with me and my emotions and it's hella tiring. I haven't been able to concentrate or go to school and I have moments when I just feel like I could fall through the earth because of some big ass brick I feel in my stomach. Some days are better than others but the feeling never goes away. I'm hoping it will. If it was only a little bit of a sad feeling that you could get rid of by crying and getting a hug from your boyfriend. But it's not. This is a different kind of sadness, something I've never felt before. On the really bad moments it's almost immobilizing. And I worry. I worry about not being able to do my exams in June because I can't concentrate for the life of me. I worry that I'll keep feeling this feeling for ever. I worry that my boyfriend will dump/cheat on me because I have massive fear of abandonement issues right now. Most of the time I just feel one of those worries but when they all come together it SUCKS BALLS. Luckily I think my boyfriend loves me so that's one thing. But the rest is still scary. Now I will awkwardly change this depressing post into a hair post. Life is awkward sometimes. I can't give my poor readers depressing posts and no eyecandy!

After having my awesome and eternally flattering bob-haircut for two years in a row (which is a long time for me, I've been switching haircuts and lengths a lot since I turned twelve or something) I started lusting after short hair again. I'm always lusting after short hair. There's something about it, if it's the right short cut that frames a face the right way... I find it incredibly attractive. Haircuts like these always make me want to chop my hair immediately:

I want to marry the Michelle Williams picture. How adorable is she?! Anyhoo, I don't keep lusting very long. I'm a do-er! So peoples, here is my new 'do!

I'm so happy with it, I found an awesome new hairdresser thanks to my sister and he did an amazing job. It's exactly what I asked for and I feel awesome with it. And I still have enough hair to play around with my signature bright hairdyes! How do you feel about short hair? Padapapapa, are you lovin' it? :-D Also, check out my awesome eye make-up!:

My 100 shadow palette is one of the best things ever. And a little tip for girls who want to chop their hair but are afraid of what their boys are going to say: they'll nag before you go to the hairdresser but when you come back they'll just love the fact that they can see your face even better. :-D

Blues and greens

A little good news! Remember my last post? I stated that, here in Belgium, you can't give your kid the mother's last name unless you're completely single or divorced for at least 300 days. Well, apparently someone in our government reads my blog (hahaha not really but MAYBE THEY DO....) and today my sister linked me a newsarticle, with one of our female politicians in the government stating that she wants to change that law! We're not quite there yet because she wants to give the kid double last names instead of just LETTING THE PARENTS CHOOSE the freaking last name but still, it's getting there! That same politician is all about gender equality so YAY! If I could vote for her I would! Thank you guys so much for your awesome feedback on my last blogpost, I love talking to people about the stuff that I think is important and I'm glad I'm not the only one!

Not much to say apart from the former. I just bought some new boots in the sales here, BEST BOOTS EVER, exactly what I was looking for and only 55 euro thanks to the 50% off! Bought some other things too, I'll do a sale post in a couple of days with all the stuff I bought! I bought a skirt, a sweaterdress, a cardi, a denim shirt and a black sweater with some multicolored details. And KNICKERS, hihihihi. :-D I'm afraid the knickers aren't very sexy. I'm more about cute, lacy, colorful underwear than black, red and sexy stuff I guess. It's the stuff that's in the underwear that counts, though! Maybe I'll do a bra post? I have an egg to peal (hahaha that's a dutch saying, meaning that you have something you really want to talk about/are about to confront someone) with underwear stores/companies, involving making good, supporting, pretty bras for big boobehs, so I have some stuff for an underwear-related post. Let me know if you'd like that! For now, a colorful outfit! I still have some old outfits lying around and I really liked this one! So enjoy! :-)

Now I want to cut my bangs. I think I will, tomorrow! How do you feel about bright pink lippy? OH I also want to share zebra nails with you!

Easy and awesome! All you need is a white base, black nailpolish, a thin brush and that's it! Just paint some black stripes over the white, try to make them a little shapely and maybe make them lead into a split stripe. Super easy and it's such a cool look, I totally recommend it! Hope you lovelies had a lovely day and I'll catch ya later!